I dreamed of her for ten years and it was always heartbreaking.
13/09/2018
My life is haunted
By the ghost of you
Who took my soul
In the palm of your hand
And through no fault of your own
Led me to ruin
I fell for you
When you fell away
And when I told you loved you
It was too late by far
And I had sunk my spirit
So deeply into yours
That I couldn’t be friends
And my soulmate was gone
I did foolish things
I took you for granted
When I called you my own
I was asleep at the wheel
When the iron was hot
And the magic that could have been
Slipped away
It cuts me deep
When I think about what could have been
We were at our best
When we were together
Finally the time has come
Where I no longer see you in my dreams
But as I sit with my time
And the path life could have taken
I’m haunted
By the ghost of you
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There was a time when my soul, ego and mental health were very fragile and adding a broken heart to the mix was hard to take. I made the mistake of missing the boat with a stunningly beautiful Vietnamese girl who loved me when I didn’t care and that I loved when she didn’t care.
I foolishly ended our friendship on the basis that I though seeing her without having her would be painful. I realized afterwards that I had ended the last relationship keeping my sane.
I dreamed of her for ten years and it was always heartbreaking.
I’m still haunted by the ghost of what could have been.