In jail it was necessary to build a tough exterior to survive
20/09/2020
I am my own
Guardian angel
Protecting my inner self
With the staunch spirit of manhood
It could all have proved to be
Too much to handle
But my courage swung into action
Turning fear into love
Stress into motivation
And vulnerability into strength
That unbreakable spirit
Kept the wolves at the door fed
The ghosts banished
And the flame of love alive
And isn’t it always true
That a duality exists
Strong but weak
Weak but strong
Loved but hated
Hated but loved
So I work hard on the flaws
Of my inner self
Until the two dragons
Of the surface and the deep
The ying and yang
Flow into one whole
Both at peace and at war
Nurturing the parts of me
That relentlessly strive for the good
Until it’s safe enough
For them to walk tall
Completely authentic
I am my own salvation
Blessed be the warrior spirit
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Even though I’ve done a lot of time and have a red blooded male temper, there’s a softer side to me that I had to protect in order to leave jail with my soul intact as an unbroken spirit.
There’s a divide between who I am on the surface and who I am inside, in jail it was necessary to build a tough exterior to survive and that’s a part of who I am but there’s a softer part of my soul as well.
I look forward to the time when the two converge and I am fully authentic in my life.
