I love life and live it to the fullest.
10/10/2019
The second time I attempted suicide
I was serious about it
I have the scar to show it
I was in walking distance ton the highway
Somewhere near ‘Nambucca Heads’
It clicked that it would be
An easy way to end it
Just walk in front of a semi-trailer
Doing 110km
So I did
It took me a few moments
To realise what had happened
I was spun around and found
I could no longer raise my arm
I had a broken humorus
But there was nothing funny about it
The truck had just clipped me
Cracked a few vertebrae in my spine
But not dead
After that I lost my nerve
Walked home and my dad
Drove me to the hospital
Unaware of my arm
Just for how crazy I was acting
Life would continue to get tougher
But every day I’m thankful
That I was unsuccessful
It wasn’t my time
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One thing that comes from both attempting suicide and hitting rock bottom in jail is that you no longer fear death while at the same time cherishing life. I’m eternally grateful that I had the chance to continue living long enough for things to improve and now I love life and live it to the fullest.
If ever you’re enduring hardship know that a time comes for everyone where things get better.
Christo, I am glad you survived to live a happier life today. 🙂 Thank you for sharing your poetry; you are a gifted poet. ❤
All the best! Cheryl
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Thanks again Cheryl, I truly am blessed to be enjoying life these days and I greatly appreciate the kind words:)
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Very poignantly and skillfully evoked.
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Thank you for sharing your battles with life. Many do not survive suicide attempts. May you; e blessed with good health and be protected from all inner and outer harm.
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Thanks so much, the trials in my life have given me a deeper appreciation for life and less fear of death, the future looks good, all the best:)
-Christo
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