In truth
I haven’t been at my best
This last decade
Every mistake is now
My own infinite failure
From the office job
To the night shift
To the warehouse
To the prison
And beyond
All the while searching
For the clarity and confidence
I was blessed with
As a youth
And those that know me
At my best
Are the only ones
Who can resurrect my spark
That opened the world to me
Like an oyster
In the glory of youth
And those precious few
Don’t want to know me
And the person I’ve become
I don’t blame them
Not many do
They say in times of hardship
The quantity of your friends diminishes
And the quality of your friends improves
So I cherish the precious few
Drops of human kindness
That falls so sparsely
In the wake of
A life that you wouldn’t wish
On your worst enemy
Still hope survives
Resolute and strong
And thank god for that
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Sometimes it’s hard to remain positive in the wake of the hardship that came with jail, I feel like it’s possible to have a decade of poor form followed by a decade of excellence. This is what I strive for.
Life is better than it was and continues to improve but I still wouldn’t wish my troubles on anyone.
I have faith that those few old friends that remain can guide me to a brighter future.
Very movingly evoked
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